Yesterday was our presentation for HR videos. There were laughs and all.. Although I don't really know what was the message we passed through from our videos. lol. No matter, as long as it is funny, can can. lol Cuz I'm too sick of trying so hard already. Shouldn't work so hard either la. Just today HR lecturer taught us how stress and working so hard could drive you nuts. Freaked me out. Like how overload work could kill you or mental failure. lol.. She mentioned one of her staffs that had burnout and then was recovering so she gave her a chance by hiring her. Then she got better, got married with a good man and then got a child. But she couldn't cope the stress so she dropped her son from 6th storey? o.O Probably most singaporean might have heard of that news ?? I dunno. I thought she was doing great.. I think she hang herself as well..

Anyway after presentation, everything for this semester is done! La la ~ exam left la of cuz! But taking exam also reminds me of him!!!!!!!! Whenever I think about exam, my mind would automatically go to him and madly deeply miss him! sigh..

Anyway, so Bambi asked whether I want to go to Escape theme park with them or not. Normally, the answer I would give is "No".. but it's amusement park. Although I have heard that Singapore's amusement park is small, i still want to give it a try as I love to have fun at amusement park since young. So I agreed to go with them.

So today we went. A big group, 8 girls. haha. It can be called as my first time to be out with this big group, 8 people! At first it was quite challenging. But, it was fun. Taking photos wherever we got, it's fun when everyone is like photo-addicts. Never-Say-No-to-Photos kinds of girls! ^^

Firstly, went into the haunted house. I refused to go into there at first but I gave 18 dollars and I went there for adventure. So why not give it a try? It's not that they are real anyway, right? Well, ridiculous though. I shouted my ass off but when I got out of there, I felt that the one in Myanmar would be scarier than that. I have never been into the haunted house itself in myanmar, but been into the one that needed to go in with train. Ooh, that one, scared me.

Then, went to the car thing. I dunno how to drive though I have learnt a bit? So I was scared I could not cope. Anyway, for the first time, I didn't drive, just sat beside Bambi. It was fun.. windy and stuffs ^^ then went to wet and wild? lol.. It really wet us. But not bad, not bad... Love it.. And I was hoping for a roller coaster. We did see one and we did try. But it's super-duper mini roller coaster! >.< So damn small! :E okay anyway, went to try Viking ship and love the feeling of it!! And then, I wanted to try Superman a lot! lol. I dunno how it is really called but that looks like Superman flying.. or is it really called superman? anyway, that one made me dizzy! :S

After that, went to Viking again with Bambi while others were Q-ing for the car thing again. After Viking, we went to cut Q. lol ...and then this time I drive! haha.. I loved the feeling! Thought it would be hard but it wasn't as challenging as I thought it would be! Afterall, most of the time were spent Q-ing, rather than playing! lol and plus taking photos! Worth it la.. took so many photos! :D

Dinner at foodcourt and then mrt home~ Really really tired but everyone got online, uploaded photos on facebook and tag each other, "like" each others' photos and some comments~ They planned to go "Wild Wild Wet?" again next time.. haha.. Oh btw, did i mention that Escape got two staffs who are so damn cute!!!!!!? lol.. totally and really! haha..

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A poem that was written like a month ago but was unfinished until yesterday as i got some feelings to complete my dear poem.. ^^

Guilty Hearted

I love you
Mind to take a closer look
For my heartbeat is in the loop
Of the sweetest soundtrack of you.

I love you
Let me take just one more step
Cuz I'm hopelessly proud to be in your presence
For I preciously treasure you.

Yes it hurts
The future becomes so dark
The moment I fell in love
Cuz you are the mirror that will never reflect back

Yes, I love you.. dear
but you are my brilliant torture
Day by day, I'm missing
Drop by drop, my heart is dripping

Forgive my heart for offering a place,
you would never want to belong to.

6th November 2009
-=Kitty Yang=-
[Your Brilliant Torture]
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月亮代表我的心。。。 ^^

I want to get out of this life asap!!
Tired tired tired! When I got tired, I would start to find something or someone to blame for making me tired. Project is something I can blame. But nobody asked me to work until midnight or morning for that. Why so serious? In the end, i can't even guarantee that I'm gonna get As.

I love editing video and I am doing that yesterday after showering when I woke up and then.. had a break for lunch, continued editing, then evening I went swimming and then dinner then back to editing again. My friend kept asking me what I was doing and I kept answering that I'm editing video.. Omg.. I dun have a life at all? I'm pleased with what I have done until the moment I made it into the video file. Things got screwed up. My hand started to ache around 10 pm last night and it's aching until now.. No idea why is that. It's worse that right hand is aching so, hard to write notes this morning. Anyway, just because I was so much looking forward to finish it, I bear the pain for as long as I could hold but in the end, things went wrong and it became like NOTHING at all to what I've been doing for the whole day! Damn it. I got frustrated that I went to bed around 3.30 and then I thought my aching would disappear the moment I open my eyes. However, not only the aching didn't go away, the progress of editing video continued in my dream. o.O

Weird enough. I felt so much active and alert the moment I woke up, just that my hand was aching and that was disturbing. I didn't feel like going to school but still had to. Packed my things and then left school. Grr! I'm starting to hate to walk that street or whatever you call it. Probably because I had to walk after alighting156 where a bunch of ppl from SIM boarded from the hostel ?? It doesn't make sense though. lol

Then another movie making.. why do I have friends who know photos but not videos??? damn. Even those who are so expert at computer cannot help me with it. Anyway, Thiri's got lots of friends who had done HR video so begged her to ask for help. I know there's supposed to be a solution to my problem. I believe in it! As I'm not expert video-editor, my ability to handle things has limit and it has exceeded so yeah I gotta ask for help. Her friend from Sem 5 said that he will check for me tomorrow! So I still have hope! As I got stressed with that video, I couldn't really communicate with people anymore as I got more and more impatient. !_!

I hope lecturer don't torture the future Sem 3 students by asking them to do videos even for M.A! damn it. I like doing video for HR, but not marketing. !_! and it's not my favorite subject either.. none of them are.. Since the start of DMS, I have always set aside my favorite subjects.. Business Mathematics, F.A and M.A.. M.A can't be count as my fav though cuz I really dunno if I like it or not cuz I still haven't touched the other half of it yet. lol

Arrghhhhhhh!
I miss my damn guy! hehe.. It's been over 2 weeks that he's ever got online. I wonder what's been doing these days. Normally, I would have already assumed that he had blocked me. Although I'm not sure if he had done that, I believe that he haven't! lol..
I miss seeing a guy with blue bag, waiting for the bus..
I miss him smiling at his friends..... I miss him..
I miss him I miss him I miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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How am I going to erase you off from my imprinted heart?

It's 5.24 now. Lesson starts in 4 hours time. Should be getting ready to leave at around 8.. erm.. still got a few times to sleep.. though i thought about not sleeping at all.. cuz sleeping for a few hrs can make me more tired.. sigh.. but still .. got nothing to do so better sleep ba..

Last semester, we redo the report for statistics on the eve of deadline and got A+.. so I thought even if I cannot finish, I still have Friday night. But as the time got closer, I realized it's hard for 4000 words report to finish within a night even if you have all the contents.. In order for tomorrow night to be a little easier, me and anthony stayed up late to finish as much as possible.. Now the problem is the words are exceeding, conclusion is left to be done. o.O

Just hope that I don't doze off in class..

Forgive me for my freaking attitudes cuz I am not patient these days..

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I just keep on thinking about you...
I was looking forward to sleep cuz I dreamt about you..
When I'm lonely, I want you to be there..
When I got sick of things, I yearn for you..
When I am tired, I want to see you..
I dunno why and know it doesn't make sense to want you the most when I'm at my weakest stage.

After a whole week of school, DMS students still need to deal with the class on saturday. Days getting closer to weekend doesn't really make any difference for me anyway. I just felt like... "Oh.. A week has ended!"

I was born alone and will die alone. Although I know that fact, I still want to find the so-called my "half-apple".. lol. Just learnt that quoted phrase from t-drama. 桃花小妹.. well probably still early~ I am just too bored! My days seem to be meaningless. Is it? Probably not. I just dunno how to find the meaning out of it. Anyway, so my busy saturday started the moment I pressed the "snooze" button when my phone alarm set off.

Dressed up with my favorite home-made dress which was new as I just remembered about my cousin-niece's one month birthday party that I needed to attend to after school. Then, I left home. Ipod touch has been useful lately, my bro showed me an application "Transguide" which let me know the arrival time of 156. Most of the time, I rushed from my home cuz it is "Arriving" already. lol. Out of 20 times, only one bus has been missed. Not so bad, huh? First few days after school started, I didn't use transguide and had to wait for like 20 minutes at the bus-stop. Damn. 

Three hours of school.. HR HR.. Damn I should stop being talkative.. Whatever she taught, goes in from right ear and goes out from another? lol. Anyway, the lecturer scared me yesterday as she said most of us didn't do well for CA 1 cuz most of us emphasized more on the SINGAPORE instead of HR MANAGEMENT! God, I didn't even want to open my HR assignment to check whether I emphasize on SG or HR. I thought I cannot make it this time~ ..sigh.. well.. Got back the feedback for it today.. quite early though. She said she gave back so that we know how much do we need to work hard on the CA 2~ Nice~.. She said 3 students failed, Average is normal, Good is below 80, Well done is 80 and above~ wooh~ I got "Well Done"! That was a relief! I was pretty regretted that I didn't ask Hannie to check the grammars cuz that was the only part that was lowest - 3 out of 5... Anyway.. I failed my reference in SEM 1 - MPO.. As it is the same lecturer, I was aware of it more this time.. Last time I got like 1 out of 5? o.O .. Lucky enough, used the skill from bis com. lol. I used the MLA format as I was determined to pass the reference also! this time 4 out of 5 ~ So Just need to work harder on group assignment lo.. Want to get the bonus 10% for the best female presenter! lol. I don't think I'm gonna get it though. ^^

So after class, I called up my brother to check where he is. I thought probably he's already at my cousin's house. But I was surprised to find out that they were still at Clementi bus-stop and coming by 154.. So I just boarded the bus they were on and then transit bus to my cousin's house. I saw the baby.. I have never seen a baby that small.. One month old? seriously I have never seen in real life! heheh.. She's so cute and so small. I dare not touch cuz she was sleeping.. She seems to be so soft also.. dun want to hurt the little baby girl as I really dunno how to handle baby. Although she was sleeping, her facial expression was changing all the time.. One second she's smiling, one second she's serious. The baby that age is really cute.. Her brother who is 5 years old now is kinda annoying. Really dunno what he really wants, selfish and egoistics.. Thats how most kids that age behave anyway.. I just can't stand that and that's no wonder I couldn't get along with my cousin sister when I was around 10 and she was around 4.. lol.. Okay.. Don't tell my cousin that I think his son is annoying.. lol.. jk~

Left their home around 3 plus.. At first thought about going home straight away... bus to Toh Payoh Mrt and then after walking around and thinking what to do.. my bro said lets go to Funan to buy swimming cap. Oh Swimming Cap! I said YES! of cuz! haha. I've been longing for it for so long so yeah~ but my bro had other purpose as well and Wei jie knew it! He wanted to check the price for laptops. lol.. Anyway, each of us got a cap ~ nice ~~ I bought blue black one.. hoping I would not regret for not buying red one.. but I did feel cognitive dissonance after I found out that my swimming suits upper part got more reddish one so it will match more if the cap is red also.. >.< Anyway, after that, we went to check price for Wii as well as some laptops. Bus home with 106 and then did not even have time to sit and changed into swimming suit and went swimming. We've already planned that we will swim when we get back but having the swimming suit in hands motivated us more to swim~ haha.. Swam until around 8pm and then took shower and went to buy food at NTUC and went home~ Dinner at 9.30 and movies and tvs~ No time for studies at all and I'm already sleepy. Should sleep soon.. ^^




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Looks like I was wrapped or sth~ felt I am really small after looking at this picture tho.. hehe

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Kitty Yang ah!
还觉得你们很有缘份吗？？
也许以前是很有缘似的， 现在连接近他的机会都没有。。
奇迹也需要付出些什么吧？ 可是连让我付出的机会也不给。。
只能在黑暗中默默地等待，等到老他也不会发现。。
真正的人生不可能会像电影， 爱情也是一样。。 
如果我跟他可以在偶像剧里那样，可以常常见面就好了。。
可惜啊。。我可以想像得到他跟他可爱的女朋友开心的画面， 就是好羡慕。
他们应该好幸福。。要是要拆开他们就会觉得好残忍。。
sigh.. 我的华语还 okay 吧？lol.. ^^